Learning to Rollerskate

Morning After

Race to the Sky

Boy Who Could Fly

Another Daybreak

Five Miles

Moving Away

Makisama

Sky High Blue

Nth Noon

Final Hour

 

LYRICS AND COMMENTARY

Learning to Roller Skate (Instrumental)

                                                                       

Roller skates are funny things.  They are heavy, awkward, and totally contradictory to the streamlined motion of skating.  Surprisingly I don’t remember much learning how to ride a bike, but I have fond memories of being too lazy to take my roller skates off and doing stupid things like climbing stairs and going to the toilet while wearing them.  They were more awkward than most since they were the kind that didn’t have boots attached, so you could adjust them as your feet grow. 

 

Mike and I did this track immediately after re-watching The Royal Tenenbaums, so the movie probably set the mood.  We hadn’t thought of the lyrics, so we did away with them and thought the guitar and keyboards were enough.  I found a hand-held xylophone (cheap and a bit out of tune), and at the last minute we added xylophone and lead guitar tracks.  I had a few lines, from which we got the title, “… and the older girls on the street, learning to roller skate/while I sit in my room glued to the screen/smiling/and smitten by Elvis.”

       

The only thing I can remember about wanting the title for this song is the funny thought of making a video where two old lady best friends try their luck at a local town skating competition – they start off awkwardly holding each other’s hands then after seeing these two old men in the audience who they supposedly had big crushes on as kids (as recalled by the indispensable flashback sequence), they break out into acrobatic moves - tossing and turning – flipping their hair and each other in the air – giving the ‘boys’ the occasional flirtatious wink…any pro bono directors out there? – don’t hesitate to contact us. 

 

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Morning After

 

Listen for that perfect sound

Between a dream and a lie, and let it ring.

This could well be the movie in my mind

Where you only read between the smiles

 

And no one knows for sure

How we ended up here

Or how we ended up at all.

 

Looking for that empty space

When all of this light around us has found its place.

Drive away in my time machine

We might just go fast enough so we could stay completely still.

 

And no one knew for sure

How we’d end up here

Or how we’d end up at all

 

We just waited for the morning after.

 

And ‘round the bend

One day you’ll never be the same again.

Around the bend

The horizon’s only an illusion for you

To take the chance and stay alive. 

 

The result of my first collaboration with my brother was an instrumental, a “theme” of some sort, the way movies have them.  One day I came home and Mike had laid down a melody with these lyrics that were both dreamy and down-to-earth; I never thought such a thing was possible.  We kept the melody of the wurly piano anyway, and the vocal walks alongside this melody, traipses behind it, or does its own thing separately.  I thought doing that would normally result in confusion, yet discovered that it created a sound which we both liked.  I think this song defined the rest in this record – knee-deep in vocal harmonies and spare in instrumentation - and Morning After still has my favorite lyrics so far: “drive away in my/time machine, we might/just go fast enough so we could stay/completely still”.

 

I can’t really place it on a timeline, but I remember vividly this one morning when Mick woke me up from a dream about wild cats roaming around what seemed like my pre-school playground…the cougar was about to take its turn on the fireman’s pole when she nudged me into consciousness – turned out she had this crazy idea that siblings, having lived together for most of her life and all of mine, could actually come up with music that people would listen to without cheese streaming down their cheeks…I really had nothing better to do that day so I figured id give it a shot…the afternoon gave birth to the instrumentation for Morning After and Sky High Blue…initially there really was no plan to add vocals but I guess I just got used to how I wrote in the past, so that same night, I penned the lyrics for morning after in my room with my mind in my car on a long weekend drive home – I laid down the melodies and harmonies and that became our first song….good things always happen when I fall asleep on national geographic…

 

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Race to the Sky

 

Trying to find a wise device for counting time

Wondering where you hid your lucky stars

Been ill-at-ease with vacant dreams of

Rainbows black and white

Traveling time to start where you began

 

And tired of shooting high at the breeze

And proud of sailing the colored seas

In a race… to the sky!

 

Dreaming away

Chasing the starlight

A race to the sky

 

Paint the clouds a hazy shade of silver

Swallow sun, get drunk on liquid weather

Ride the winged taxi cabs on moonlight highways

Travel space to find where you belong

 

I was thinking about a book we had that had a poem called Wynken, Blynken and Nod.  They were pretty popular, I think.  I loved the illustration where these three small “boys” were sailing through the sky in a shoe.  Or those cartoons where the character gets on some kind of magical flying object and looks around in wonder, while sort of cornily laughing at the same time.  I guess this song has a bit of Great Space Coaster inspiration in it… a get-on-board-step-inside-soaring-through-a-magic-ride kind of thing happening.  Yet I was also thinking of Air’s Ce Matin La, which is my favorite track in the Moon Safari album.  Though the lyrics are about a grown-up experience, I thought it would be fun to have images go along with it.  Mike and I never grew out of watching cartoons.  Though mainstream cartoons for kids these days are far more stylish, there were some old gems that had a charming brilliance that you don’t really see anymore. 

 

I have the most fun playing this song.  Each note in the plucking pattern relates to each note in the vocal melody in a way that makes singing and playing equally enjoyable.  Mick and I had the same idea about the thematic Great Space Coaster likeness and that brought about the kind of harmonies we put into the track.  We’re really big on those 80’s shows.  My secret ambition is to establish a tv network that plays only reruns of shows from the 80’s….. 

 

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Boy Who Could Fly

 

I step out to meet him, this boy who could fly

Strangely resembling one familiar with the sky

Perched on the rooftop, he surveys the city below

I look over his shoulder and wonder if we’re focused on the same spot

 

The sidewalk that bends home is light-years away

A hundred flights down seems like a fraction

Despair and delirium play hide and seek

But the boy remains oblivious when he says…

 

I could take you with me

Across routine turns and forgetful streets

We’d go through each daydream and won’t miss a single beat

My window was a canvas of painted wishes

That got washed away whenever the sky fell

 

I rushed out to see him, this boy who could fly

Straight from a dream I knew he called me that night

Perched on the rooftop, we survey the city below

Looking over everyone’s shoulders and wondering if they know

 

This is my youngest brother Bobby’s favorite song on the record.  Once again there are images drawn here – foggy little fellow perched on a rooftop, forgetful streets as opposed to memory lanes, a canvas of painted wishes.  I like how Mike illustrated time as sidewalks and flights of stairs.  I really don’t want to dissect this song… I think it’s a good thing that the first person is in the dark too, and nobody really knows what to make of this unlikely hero.  Listening to it now, I hear the guitar scratching surfaces and the piano steadily pacing back and forth, and we’re lazily singing in a two-part harmony almost the entire time – I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.  The Everly Brothers harmonies our mom taught us when we were kids are tucked away neatly in the back of my head, and to this day we think there’s no one like Simon and Garfunkel. 

 

The imagery for this song started with my memory of the 80’s flick with the same title.  Through her window, a young girl would witness this boy mysteriously appear on the roof with his arms spread out like he was about to fly.  I remember the actor’s face had the ability to seem lonely yet content to be alone at the same time.  Watching it as a kid, I couldn’t quite decide whether it was depressing or glorious in the end when he finally proved that he could fly.  Looking back, that could’ve just been a metaphor – but seeing as it was made in the 80’s, they were probably being literal.  The thing with man wanting to fly is that it shows both ambition and desperation.  I’m not sure the song has decided which story to tell.     

 

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Another Daybreak

 

Sat himself down for what he thought would be routine

A cup of joe, his Camels and a magazine

Another daybreak, another waitress burns his toast

But he resolves to remember that it wasn’t always so

 

Patterns on every page unlock stories yet to be told

Of catchers in the rye and streets paved with gold.

 

Under the table a little boy wears daddy’s boots and dreams that someday…

A little girl catches up with mommy’s stride and dreams that one day…

 

Drove the car out into a yellow brick highway

Passed the signs that would catch your eye if it were an ordinary day

We were young then, and couldn’t care any less

Tell me how would you resist cornfields and rocket ships

 

They fell in love with the headlights on and the stars in her hair

Joni was singing her song while the wind danced like Fred Astaire.

 

This was a song written by Mike about 4 years ago.  I just helped out with the melody that time because it was meant for female vocals.  We did a swingy, groovy piano part this time, which gave it a slightly different feel.  I wish I could play this kind of music better.  I like the images here… the man smoking in a diner and later driving through an urban Oz.  I remember spending breaks at my former workplace smoking alone, taking a minute to be careless, sick of the daily routine, and everything seemed wrong.  I think I spend about half my life daydreaming I was somewhere else. 

 

I’m probably the most nostalgic guy I know.  The fun part of reminiscing is mysticizing the missing pieces in your memory – almost convincing yourself that it happened a little differently – somehow the gaps from one event to the other, the parts of the conversation you can’t seem to remember, that person whose name you seem to have forgotten – they all justify the probability that it was a lot more glamorous than most people believe it was.  I sat myself down on my mythical diner thirty years from now – but fifty decades back in history – recreated my past and my future simultaneously – then asked a girl to sing about it for me.  Originally, that girl was Michaela Tatad from my previous band Fiddler’s Green - my sister and I recreated the song with her piano and vocals this time around for Outerhope.  The swing emphasized by the keys really lifted the song and I feel like this is how it was really meant to sound. 

 

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Five Miles

 

We were just playing around and came up with this piece that had a restless tone to it.  We thought the instrumentation already captured the feeling of anxiety that we wanted – going somewhere, having no idea where, traveling and stopping and going again, running out of fuel, finding a fork, losing the map, being almost there but not quite – that all we needed were a few words, and a lot of humming. 

 

Five Miles is our tribute or I should say royalty to the novel that provided our name Outerhope.  The least we can do is rip off the entire title right?  No, but it just fit us perfectly and if anything Nicola Barker should feel nothing but delight at the thought of encapsulating the lives of two frustrated musicians in just four words.  I think the general feeling of restlessness that the song gives is amplified in the sparing lyrics “five miles to go…five miles more” – you’re given a definite distance but you really can’t be sure what that number means to you – most of the time we can’t decide whether we’re relieved that we’re almost there or frustrated that we’re not there yet.       

 

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Moving Away

 

She’s walking away from days in the sun

To light up the sky with a million more

She’s drifting away and like a child she dreams

Of pennies and rainbows and a million more

 

Someday you’ll wonder where the tides come crashing down

Girl lay your weary head.

 

She’s longing for days that sent her wandering

To bridges and highways under sunlit skies

How hazy and blinding now, the lights before her eyes

Who’ll pick up the pieces when we fall apart?

 

Someday you’ll wonder where the tides come crashing down

Lay your weary head.

 

I originally did not want to include this song on the record.  However, some of our friends really liked it and said it reminded them of The Sundays, which is one of my favorite, favorite bands.  I used to listen to the album Reading, Writing and Arithmetic day and night.  Harriet Wheeler has a very distinct, sparkling voice.  Another singer I really like is Suzanne Vega.  When I was little and first heard the song Luka, I was enthralled.  She has this very shy, nearly indifferent tone, and I think of her as an outsider, an observer.  And I really like Karen Peris of The Innocence Mission – her voice childlike and sudden and almost out-of-breath, like a fizzy whisper.  I think these girls have amazing voices, despite the air of self-consciousness that sometimes surrounds them.  My mom used to sing Astrud Gilberto songs all the time, which probably explains why I lean toward this type of singing.  I think I identify more with these singers because I’ve always had a sort of wimpy, regular-girl voice and I never could relate to the Arethas of our time – though I think they’re incredible and I’m probably just jealous.  Still, I love all these shy introverted singers, imperfections included, and I think I finally got to an age where I no longer mind sounding like myself.

 

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Makisama

 

Naniniwala bas a sariling pag-aalangan

Inukit na kaligtasan

Ang pagtalikod mo’y pa-kanan

At ang naiwan mong mundo’y pa-kaliwa naman

 

Nagpapadala sa tadhana

Ang kawalan ng pangarap

Pipiliin pa ang nakasanayang pang-karaniwan lang

 

Makisama

 

Panaginip:

Naglalakad, nagpapanggap, tinatanggap

Nag-iisang naglalakad

Naiiba, nag-iisa.

 

These are the only lyrics we actually sat down to write together.  We were thinking of the Beatles’ Nowhere Man, and about how everybody becomes one at some point.  I think everyone finds it difficult to resist choosing safer paths.  The “panaginip” part creeps me out a bit.  A whistling vocal part would have underlined the thought, but it’s a shame that neither of us knows how to whistle.  I can whistle about three notes max.  We used a chorus rhodes voice on the keyboard instead, and a lot of vocal harmony.

 

This actually started off as a potential English song – I already had the chord progression done - but we were challenged by the idea of writing in Tagalog just because we’ve never tried to.  We worked on the words together and I hogged the vocals on one harmony crazed night.  I’m not sure Mick has forgiven me for that.  I wasn't too comfortable with the sarcasm in this song.  I didn't really want to seem self-righteous.  Anyway, i guess i just want it to be personal rather than social.     

 

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Sky-High Blue

 

You and I on a roller-coaster ride

That’s making you high, making me blue

Walking down the street and the cars are passing me by

I’ve made a whirlwind of my life just following you

 

I’m trying to find you baby while you walk the world in circles.

 

I know it’s a battle of ever-changing minds

Walk the world in circles into a fever-high

Cross the distant spaces through a maze of lives

Where can I find you under this sky- high blue?

 

You and I spend our days in tangled ties

Will the sidewalks end in shadows dark with an impossible hue?

Walking down the street, kicking ladders and changing signs

The roads are slippery wet with lies and I’m following blind.

 

This song was written in the same day we did Morning After, and was supposed to be an instrumental as well.  We found this odd strobe sound on the keyboard.  It took forever to do the lyrics, silly as they are.  The image of a bewildered person deliriously chasing someone around was probably brought about by that persistent strobe sound and the out-of-place sevens in the chords.  This song just seems to ramble on and on, wearily.  And I thought about that feeling of being relentless while doing something that is at once urgent and futile.  I realized that there is such a feeling as getting a buzz on perplexity, and found that it wasn’t easy to describe.

 

Sky High Blue was probably the most frustrating to record because of the uncooperative strobe we chose from Mick’s Roland – playing this live in our first gig at Conspiracy, virtuoso musician friend Joon Guillen salvaged the song when he replaced the strobe with a guitar riff which I think was inspired by my breaking into a Guns N’ Roses song in one of our practice sessions.  Now you know our roots.  I really like the lyrics my sis wrote.  I don’t think I can ever pull off using the word “baby” in a song.  The melody is meant to drag you across the floor, spin you around in circles and make you forget whatever it is you’re looking for. 

 

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Nth Noon

 

Hear beyond these hollow walls

The footsteps of familiar hours

And run away into the halls of time

 

Hand me the keys we’ll step into

The unexplored, until we find

A hideaway like nothing we have seen

 

Take my hand we’ll cross the sand dunes

Through the doorways of the nth noon

 

Echoing across our minds

The drifting waves of distant seas

We float awake our heads upon the tide

 

Take my hand we’ll cross the sand dunes

Through the doorways of the nth noon

Take my hand we’ll cross the sand dunes

Our stroke of luck around the nth noon

 

Light the paper matches that make fireflies

Strangely paired like you and I

Where things we’ve lost grow on trees

 

This was originally “Nth Moon”.  Someone sent me an e.e. cummings poem about eight years ago, and it goes:

 who knows if the moon's
a baloon,coming out of a keen city
in the sky--filled with pretty people?
(and if you and i should

get into it, if they
should take me and take you into their baloon,
why then
we'd go up higher with all the pretty people

than houses and steeples and clouds:
go sailing
away and away sailing into a keen
city which nobody's ever visited,where

always
            it's
                    Spring)and everyone's
in love and flowers pick themselves

I was thinking of this poem, and I thought of wanting to be in that place an infinite number of times, which makes an endless number of moons and keen cities in the sky that “nobody’s ever visited”.  It started as a song about an odd couple, but it no longer is.  I think this song may be for me and my siblings and the giant transitions we went through the last couple of years.  I think we were forced to grow up overnight, with a great deal of reluctance.  Now that I think about it, this album may just be about our resistance to adulthood, and trying to escape it in vain.

I was also thinking about a Cocteau Twins song title: “Theft and Wandering Around Lost” that interestingly makes you wonder where all the stolen things go. 

Mike misheard me and thought it was “Nth Noon”, which works with “our stroke of luck”, and this utopia became a time and a place.

 

This is probably my favorite among all the songs written by my sister.  I just like how the haunting lyrics are playfully laid out over the melody.  This might not exactly be what Mick was imagining but (well, that’s the beauty of collaboration i think.  My imagination depends on me – while our collective imagination in this case, depends on you) I was in my Last Unicorn, Flight of Dragons, The Labyrinth, Twelve Months, Fire and Ice, etc. setting when i did the guitar parts for this track.

    

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Final Hour

 

I rode the bus though you’re sitting in the parking lot

The sun rays shine and it’s lovely outside

Blue is the air surrounding me and while I see through

The haze of cars and lights I finally try

To steer clear of you

 

What can I do

Today’s a new day and I’m only half-gone

This is how it happens every time, I feel just fine

Til you charm me, til you find me

 

Today’s the strangest day

Spent too much time dreaming

I’m here and half-awake

 

Today’s the finest day

Until I count the final hour

I’m only halfway

 

I’m in a reverie swimming slowly half-blind

My mother says my heart sets my sleeve on fire

Move towards tomorrow I must try

But half of me won’t leave this hiding place

I’m split in the middle, won’t be whole ‘til dark

 

The instrumentation of this track was done by Joon Guillen, who had written it some time ago and emailed me the file.  We collaborated entirely through mail.  I did the lyrics and melody for this.  Mike put in the harmonies and we got a bit carried away.  It really is just about trying to get over someone.  We did not lift a single finger to add an instrument here; Joon played everything.  The guy’s a genius! The instrumental supposedly had a trumpet solo part, and sounded like an old caper flick, which underlined the idea of trying to get away quite nicely.  We recorded this at home, and I think it came out pretty well.  I couldn’t get it out of my head for a whole month.

 

The only thing I’m responsible for in this track are my harmonies.  Joon outdid himself here and Mick surprised us both with the early 90’s sounding melody which I think fits the song perfectly.  This is our only song with beats and a phantom full band – too bad Joon decided to remove the trumpet in the instrumental part though.  We’re still trying to figure out if we can play this live. 

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